is this the moment that my heart breaks
was there a time, a plan for me
is there a specific time for aches
toiling toward my tumbled destiny
is the present passed, the future lost
did we run out of time
for tossled twisted pretzeled limbs
for bound blind dreams of two as one
for connecting deep imagined bliss
for one long lingering lasting kiss
to stop the wheels of time
for sun and sea, to deep internal ecstasy
in which you’re forever mine
did passing days and ravaged hearts
beget their truths devine
was each embrace, in your consuming face
tempered with a sign
all lovers lost, all broken hearts
on burro’s back, heave their sack
of doubting questions brushed with black
of quizzing, quilted, hushed attack
if this was writ from whence you came
was it all as real, our candy cane
as the twilight of my mind
if my chance was sullied from the start
our love lost, our lives apart
a lurching, bleeding broken heart
how could I have missed the sign
should I have known as did our time
that now a nevermore aligned
to make you never mine
and now I sit, stir and spin
replaying distant future not
present lost to past but quick
a tingle, firm, the nervous tick
our bodies lost in others’ sweet stick
our minds come one, intimate begot
wordless knowing, tactile growing
promised breath, heaving skin
a pause, a look, begin again
a gasp, a grasp, a moment lasts
the shake, the pull, the quivvered glow
our furtive, desperate, tensile show
all at once, and back to slow
trust complete, hearts replete
in your eyes no more discrete
at last to be completely got
freed from need of more to seek
lost to time, a year, a week
a question asked, an answer sought
connection deep and true foresought
forever now, tomorrow not